I am currently 6,000miles from my spiritual home. I have in fact,no claim to Hawaiian ancestry. At best, I am a Happa, Happa Haole. A person of both white and yellow parentage. Infact, my surname is not found in American phonebooks, but it hails from the United Kingdom. I find great liberation in my diversity,my family on each side were nomadic,always hungry for a land that would make them feel at peace. (My father's lineage were soldiers as far back as history) The Polynesians who traveled in canoe like vessels were no different. They were a driven people, the biggest, strongest of their civilization paddled to the most remote island on earth and started life anew. They chose to voyage, face death. They found Hawaii.
Aloha. Aloha does not just mean hello. It is the spirit of love and acceptance. Alo means to "stand in the presence of" and "ha" means to breathe. This explains why people who are born or have lived in Hawaii most of thei lives call white people Haoles. (I am considered Kamaina- aperson who spent the majority of their life or was born on the rock-it means land child) Haole means to be without breathe. The white Christian missionaries did not practice meditative breathing exercises before they prayed. The white colonialists came to bring Christianity to the native population. They were disturbed that Hawaiians did not wear much clothing. They invented mumuus for women and taught men to dress like westerners. They meant to bring uh...decency, but instead they brought shame and guilt. Hawaiians are giant bathers, they were healthy, sturdy and clean. This seemed decadent to the Westerners. The Hawaiians had also never encountered rodents, which the Westerners also brought, and other unfortunate gifts like syphilis, pneumonia, chicken pox and the common cold. In a couple years, the Hawaiian population was quickly reduced by 75% and continued to dwindle . ( We are 7% on Oahu according to the Honolulu Advertiser) The fact that royalty began to marry Westerners made Hawaiians who remained easy converts from a holistic religon that did not subjugate women(although men and women had to eat at separate tables ) and infact exhalted women as creators and viewed homosexual as natural and a third party often used as advisors for couples.
My own study of Hawaiian spirituality was conducted at bus stops in mountain villages, in markets in the fresh air, at cemetries, at potlucks, and at a native Hawaiin Hospital. My experience of being Kama 'aina and not a tourist flavoured my connectedness to the land.
Hawaii is not popularly associated with the gothic subculture. You can not find a London After Midnite album at Tower in Aiea or even in Waikiki. In fact, when I asked a clerk in Aiea if he had any gothic albums he had no idea what I meant . And no one will admit to being or knowing a vampyre. I put in an ad for a meet up and was able to borrow space at Monterey Bay Cannery but I only had one reply in a year. But they are out there....and they are quiet about it. Everyone I ever met has some experience that is paranormal. Understand, these are either native Hawaiians, Japanese, or Asian/White mixes who are kama'aina. Most of these are ghost sightings. They describe them with great clarity. Ghosts are called Obake (oh- bah- kay). We are a culture that honours and is receptive to the dead. We have stores that actually sell things to put on our houses to tell the dead to leave us alone, or to pay them "hell money " for a safe passage. We light incense to send prayers to them...
The Vampyre lifestyler is an oddity here in the tropical heat and relentless sunshine that dries the slugs crossing the rocks into crispy brown pods....We are a subtle culture that likes to blend in...
Born in the most remote part of the earth out of fire and water -all the volcanos are now dormant exept Kilauea on the big isle of Hawaii, which erupts continuously spewing molten lava to the sea and enlarging the islan. The island is growing. It spews fire continuously like an angry dragon, yet it is the most fertile island. Pele lives here, the most powerful godess of fire and volcanos. While no one is sacrificed by specification, Pele often takes people as sacrifices with rockslides. Pele has been blamed in recent times for rolling multiton boulders onto houses. Pele demands respect, and we fear her as Lillith.....
Oahu"the gatheing place" is shrinking. And sinking. I still read the Honolulu Advertisor. The Arizona Monument at Pearl Harbor is sinking as well....It has been heightened and reinforced twice. It is sinking and will be submerged in two years according to the paper. THey will rebuild. I read Thom Hanks has donated to the project....and in Oahu, they are building over Hawaiian grave sites. The new Wal Mart in Waikiki is being protested daily and needs police there to protect it because it was built on a graveyard.....as were Chinatown, Pali Momi Hospital, some apartments, etc. It is considered not only a desecration of the deceased, but it angers the dead. An office building in Honolulu is vacant now... it was built on primeproperty exept it was a native burial ground. An employee of a softwear firm was laid off and came back a few hours later with an automatic weopan and took out 9 co workers. People do not want to even drive by the building!
Hawaii crossects the earths' natural energy grids. I was told this by a Foster Village Resident. "It is a place of energy and growth,look around you."
The officer who guards Kam 3- the haunted hiway with no spead limit is an elderly Hawaiina gentlemen. He is an elder. Infact, you can feel his powerful energy. ahe has no need for a gun. ahe can hypnotize you. He is friendly and smiles, but he leaves you with chickenskin (goosebumps). He is not only a Kahuna, but he is a Satanic witch. He informs me that they are not all evil. Oddly, he knows I am a healer, distrustful, and he sees swords and staves around me. He tells me I fight my nature and I wear makeup to mask myself, and I never married. I put my hand out and take his. "I am sorry about your wife....Kahuna.. (I bow) See you again." This happened between the space Kmart and Sac and Save were located. You can feel power, The person need not credential theirself.....His aura was an an enourmous bright yellow thick band. I felt humbled, like when I was a kid and my mom took me to town and Queen Elizabeth was passing through, waving-my mother pushed me to my knees, and at that moment I felt faint....it was a feeling such as that...
There is an interesing parallel to the chakras that I have noticed looking at maps of Hawaii. I was at the Pearl Ridge Mall Rand McNally store...it no longer exists... talking to a guy who I found peculiar and attractive in a way I can only wonder if I had known him in a past life. He was telling me they had to get rid of a lot of maps because HAWAII WAS NOT EVEN ON THEM!!! Inconceivable to me. Atleast for a second. Hell, we hoard soap, shampoo, spam, bags of rice equal to our weight, and flashlighights incase the shipping industry goes on strike. We produce nothing and live on chaeap wages in a tourist based economy....we live on the most beautiful place on earth. (I cried and gave all my possessions away when I left exept afew outfits and some DVDS,,,my friend said you know you ask for a sign, you got a new job, and you are leaving...you are crazy girl.... this is the growing place and you want to go to a dying place... cause that is what is going to happen to you..."I handed my friend my glock, my sword(everyone I know as a sword,,,,,) and my knives. "You will be back."" "No, I said, I am tired of living in whatever the fuck century this is..." "Ypu will be back. You will see someone off, and come back. humble. "he said.
Mana- the Hawaiian equivalent of self,qi.Ki, prana....It is out there....
Hawaiians see themselves as a trinity. Humakua-the higher consciousness, Uhane-the conscious mind. It has free will. It is like the ego. It predates Freud and Jung....
UUnihipili- akind of gate keeper. Unihipili is th gate keeper and energy exchanger....King of Jungian and Freudian....it predates them by a few Thousand years.
So back to this damn store at Pearl Ridge. I wanted to find out how far I was from Scotland to see a few relations get married. This fellow fianally found a map with Hawaii clearly on it.
There are seven main islands, all lined up in a row like a person sitting. WOW. Like Chakras, all lined up: ! Ni " Hau (forget visiting here, it is private, no electricity..) @2 Kau;a 3 Oahu (most populated, 45 miles around) 4 Moloka'i (hey remember leprosy?) 5 Lana'i 6 Maui & 7 Hawaii- the big island of fire and ice and 17 differnent climactic zones....ski....???/you can ski and see lava flow on the big island. It is populated by cowboys and cattle ranchers...
Aloha and Mahal0 (thank you) to be continued in the future......